Fragile: Part II AKA Forever has come to an end. Originally posted July 17, 2006

We said forever. I guess who can really know what they are saying when they are 19 and 23. We barely knew each other, and yet there we were, in front of close friends and family - (a small crowd, because we married so quickly that folks didn't have time to make travel plans.) There we were, pledging our lives to each other forever. We stood before God and witnesses, and promised. And now - after ten years, hardly forever, it is coming to an end. We had four wonderful sons together, and that can't be a mistake. They are my life, I can't imagine not having them, so It can't have been a mistake. But there were mistakes - many of them. I made mistakes, and she made mistakes. We didn't recognize them for what they were until the steamroller was coming at us at full strenth. When we got hit head-on, we lacked the ability or the resources to recover. Each of us played to the others worst fears. We got caught in a game of chicken, and we both lost. Now we are done. Two mortally wounded individuals seeking healing. Where do you go from here? I don't know. I'm numb. I have come loose from my foundations. I'm trying to find my center again, and I've got a long way to go. This has been a long time coming, and it will be a long time before there is true healing. I didn't know it could happen, but forever has come to an end.