I'm so happy I can't stop crying. Originally posted August 22,2006

I was listening to my new IPod while my plane was delayed for over two and a half hours today. I came across a record I haven't heard in years and a song grabbed me. This lyrics of this song is not indicative of the way things have gone in my divorce, as far as I know, as they relate to my ex-wife. She didn't leave me for another man, so I just wanted that to be clear. I post this not to disparage her, but to communicate the constant tinge of pain as I think of my boys. The overall mood and sentiment of the song is familiar to me.

I'm So Happy I Can't Stop Crying -
Sting

Seven weeks have passed now since she left me
She shows her face to ask me how I am
She says the kids are fine and that they miss me
Maybe I could come and baby-sit sometime
She says, "Are you O.K.? I was worried about you
Can you forgive me? I hope that you'll be happy."

I'm so happy that I can't stop crying
I'm so happy I'm laughing through my tears

I saw a friend of mine He said, "I was worried about you
I heard she had another man, I wondered how you felt about it?"
I'm so happy that I can't stop crying
I'm so happy I'm laughing though my tears

Saw my lawyer, Mr Good News
He got me joint custody and legal separation
I'm so happy that I can't stop crying
I'm laughing through my tears
I'm laughing through my tears

I took a walk alone last night
I looked up at the stars
To try and find an answer in my life
I chose a star for me
I chose a star for him
I chose two stars for my kids and one star for my wife

Something made me smile
Something seemed to ease the pain
Something about the universe and how it's all connected
The park is full of Sunday fathers and melted ice cream
We try to do the best within the given time
A kid should be with his mother
Everybody knows that
What can a father do but baby-sit sometimes?

I saw that friend of mine, he said, "You look different somehow"
I said, "Everybody's got to leave the darkness sometime"
I'm so happy that I can't stop crying
I'm laughing through my tears
I'm laughing through my tears
I'm so happy that I can't stop crying
I'm laughing through my tears
I'm laughing through my tears

I have left the darkness. Thank God for the light. Thanks everyone for your continued prayers.